DUDE! I'm trying.
They say the lugubriosity I am surviving in is chemical and understandable, but to me it feels so valid and palpable and over run. I am trying to focus all of the energy it creates somewhere away from myself. So far, I've made a scarf. Which is my most tangible accomplishment of late. Even that leaves itself everywhere. I can relate. I got cable television. Maybe a little more background noise will help to distract, maybe.